My First Angel-versary

Happy Angel-versary, Jean-Yves!

You would have been 1 today or sometime near this day.  I miss you terribly.  I saw this at the store the other day and thought of you!

You are named after one of my favorite characters in Star Trek.  Your dad wouldn't let me name you Jean-Luc and I also liked the name Yves which he also vetoed.  So we just compromised a little :)

Last week your sisters, Lara and Vivi, and I went to decorate candles for a group who is conducting a review on pregnancy loss and infant death.  They give these candles to families they come in contact with who have experienced a loss.  Now that I know how simple it is to decorate these candles, I am going to do one for you and your brother and sister who are with you in heaven.

Many of my friends sent me this picture in the past few days, which is so timely seeing how I am celebrating you.  I am grateful for my friends and family who often think of me and of you.

"The Child Who Was Never Born by Martin Hudaceka

I will be watching an episode of Star Trek: TNG and picking out all the traits of Captain Picard that I would have liked you to have.  A good leader, perhaps?  Brave and a good diplomat.  I am sure you would have been stubborn also because that is just in your genes!

It is hard to believe that you would be one years old; probably walking and babbling away.  Your sisters would be googly-eyed over you!  I would have made my first boyish cake for you.  What would you have liked?  A train?  Maybe one with a lot of candy?  A teddy bear?  One thing is for sure, our whole family loves to eat so I am sure you would have loved every bite!

We love you so much.  We miss you so much.  

'Til We Meet Again

Love, Mommy